Saturday, June 15, 2019


I was born into a traditional Portuguese family. I did not know it - of course. I was just a baby. But with time, I flowered and changed into the various stages of life. My parents wanted me to give me a solid Catholic up bringing. After I left home I rebelled against these traditions. Now as I enter the various stages of old age - I see the flux of science and modern mass communication. The world is complex and unfolding on many levels. Truth and illusion are just a breath away from each other. "Be here now" is all we need to know. Spend time with stillness silence.  Do the tasks at hand. Let everything else take care of itself. 

Monday, June 03, 2019

Great Fall

You are not broken. Working through dark feelings can be crippling, but even in that state, you are not broken. We are not eggs. We might suffer to unimaginable extremes, but we are still not broken. Though, at times, it feels like we need all the king’s horses and all the king’s men, you never have to be put back together again.

Tuesday, May 28, 2019


Bella ciao is used worldwide as an anti-fascist hymn of freedom and resistance.

It was the anthem of the World War II anti-fascist Italian underground who fought against Nazi Germany and Italian fascists. They called themselves partigiani (partisans) for the resistance. In a haunting love song, solders always sang these final words to their lover the night before battle.

Questa mattina mi sono svegliato
This morning I awakened
Bella Ciao Bella Ciao Bella Ciao Ciao Ciao
Good-bye beautiful
Questa mattina mi sono svegliato
This morning I awakened
Ed ho trovato l’invasor
And I found the invader

O partigiano porta mi via
Oh partisan carry me away
Bella Ciao Bella Ciao Bella Ciao Ciao Ciao
Good-bye beautiful
O partigiano porta mi via
Oh partisan carry me away
Che me sento di morir’
When I feel death approaching

E se io muoio da partigiano
And if I die as a partisan
Bella Ciao Bella Ciao Bella Ciao Ciao Ciao
Good-bye beautiful
E se io muoio da partigiano
And if I die as a partisan
Tu me devi seppellir’
Then you must bury me

Mi seppellirai lassu in montagna
Bury me up in the mountain
Bella Ciao Bella Ciao Bella Ciao Ciao Ciao
Good-bye beautiful
Mi seppellirai lassu in montagna
Bury me up in the mountain
Sotto l’ombra di un bel fiore
Under the shade of a beautiful flower

E tutti quelli che passeranno
And all those who shall pass
Bella Ciao Bella Ciao Bella Ciao Ciao Ciao
Good-bye beautiful
E tutti quelli che passeranno
And all those who shall pass
Ti diranno che bel fior’
Will tell you what a beautiful flower it is

E questo fiore da partigiano
And this flower of the partisan
Bella Ciao Bella Ciao Bella Ciao Ciao Ciao
Good-bye beautiful
E questo fiore da partigiano
And this flower of the partisan
E’ il fior’ di liberta
Is the flower of liberty

The flower was the red carnation, which was the symbol of the resistance. Stand up for your beliefs, now more than ever. So many are counting on you.
Bella Ciao from recent film (2017)

Wednesday, May 15, 2019

Starboard Bound

Life changes so drastically moment to moment. We look for answers in each situation because justification brings a sense of comfort. Sometimes instead of comfort though it causes us to reflect on our own personal choices. That can be incredibly difficult depending on how far we are to our own personal goals. The fantastic aspect to this process is the human capacity for change. We learn through this uncomfortability how strong we are and what actions are needed for our lives to progress forward. You are at the helm of your ship! Sail towards your destination or get lost in the choppy seas.

Monday, May 06, 2019


Follow what you hold sacred. Its a new day, new week, and new you. 

Sunday, May 05, 2019


Never forget that anything is possible

Thursday, May 02, 2019


Dont forget to breathe. Do it right now. Deep breath three times repeat three times
A little better?

Tuesday, April 30, 2019


No, no, no, no! Come, let's away to prison:
We two alone will sing like birds i' the cage:
When thou dost ask me blessing, I'll kneel down,
And ask of thee forgiveness: so we'll live,
And pray, and sing, and tell old tales, and laugh
At gilded butterflies, and hear poor rogues
Talk of court news; and we'll talk with them too,
Who loses and who wins; who's in, who's out;
And take upon's the mystery of things,
As if we were God's spies: and we'll wear out,
In a wall'd prison, packs and sects of great ones,
That ebb and flow by the moon.

Saturday, April 27, 2019


We live in a world where I was about to post about my struggle with social media but hesitated due to the fact that it would further provide data to be consumed about me. We are encountering a pivotal state in human history. We face a faceless violation of privacy that we are virtually powerless over. So whats the post about today? Heres a small snippet of a ted talk thats incredibly powerful:

Sorry I'm not more eloquent this Saturday but these 2 minutes say everything I'd like to type anyway...

Friday, April 26, 2019


Who do I call when I feel voiceless?
Where do I go when I have nowhere to turn?
How will today change my life forever?
What is going to become of me now?

Why God, why, is this happening to me?

These are all common questions everyone has asked themselves at one point or another during life's journey. Now, while I'm no lawyer, deity or genie, I can try to answer the last one. It's the most important since we all want to take something positive and tangible from a terrible situation; extract gold out of the mud. It is also the question that answers all other questions.

This is happening to you to make you better, make you stronger, and bring you closer to him. It's happening to show you who you might have taken for granted. It happening to show you who's there when the going gets tough. It's happening to show you the importance of every moment. It's happening so you can become the best you, whatever that looks like in your life. 

It's not happening to you sweetheart, it's happening for you

What Ifs

It's normal to be afraid when an uncontrollable situation arises. In order for us to avoid this fear and regain some control, we jump towards an unwritten future or unencumbered past and begin writing or rewriting our stories. Whether they end up terrifying or uplifting us, at least we are the ones who are calling the shots...right? Well, how often in a state of fear do we actually gravitate towards the uplifting ones as opposed to the terrifying ones? It's a false sense of control. We begin to spin and spin on the phrase 'what if'. What would have happened if I hadn't been saved from that shark or what if the person isn't there next time to save me! The odds that these what ifs will end in a massive beach party are very slim. What if is always going to be the beginning of a story you'd rather not entertain. It won't give you any control over the present nor dissipate your fear of the future. Stay present and let the story unfold. Also, for good measure, maybe avoid that part of the beach next time.

Wednesday, April 24, 2019


We must pass down our wisdom. We must pass down our knowledge. We must tell our stories. Whether it's written, spoken, or typed, be the bard of your era. Light the torches for you have returned

Thursday, April 11, 2019

Wake Up!

Wake up! Now is the time. Instant enlightenment comes to those who realize that this life is short. Like a lightening flash in the open sky. So be prepared. Stay awake. Now. Now, and now. Here and now.

We gradually grow into enlightenment - which is the purpose of life. Being patient as well as sensing urgency are important. It takes however long it must take; yet, there needs be enough urgency to constantly remember that today could be the "last day" of our lives. 

Wednesday, March 27, 2019

I am living the mystery of life
moment by moment.
Wisdom comes with suffering.
The older I get, the younger
everyone else becomes.
With age comes a certain now
kind of freedom.  

Saturday, February 02, 2019

Casting Spells

Where've you gone? Our philosopher is at large...
Take the flashlights and proceed with caution
Its a very long way down

Sunday, January 20, 2019

The still clear water

The still clear water
one pebble falls
waves, waves, stillness

Tuesday, January 15, 2019

Let love live

Let love live
  Heart holding
    Spirit safe
      Forever feeling

Sunday, January 13, 2019

Breath of Life

A long time ago, I killed a mouse in the kitchen by dropping it into a bucket of water. Thinking that would drown him. But it kept swimming back up to the surface. The mouse eventually drowned. At the moment of death a white mist came out of its mouth into the water. That was the mouse’s last breath - as if “seeing” his life spirit leave the body. One of the most memorable experiences in my life. 

Thursday, January 10, 2019

Walt Whitman - "Go Directly to the Creation"

Wonderful lines from Walt Whitman's preface to his 1855 edition of Leaves of Grass

This is what you shall do: Love the earth and sun and the animals, despise riches, give alms to every one that asks, stand up for the stupid and crazy, devote your income and labor to others, hate tyrants, argue not concerning God, have patience and indulgence toward the people, take off your hat to nothing known or unknown or to any man or number of men, go freely with powerful uneducated persons and with the young and with the mothers of families, read these leaves in the open air every season of every year of your life, re-examine all you have been told at school or church or in any book, dismiss whatever insults your own soul, and your very flesh shall be a great poem and have the richest fluency not only in its words but in the silent lines of its lips and face and between the lashes of your eyes and in every motion and joint of your body. . . . The poet shall not spend his time in unneeded work. He shall know that the ground is always ready ploughed and manured. . . . others may not know it but he shall. He shall go directly to the creation.

Monday, January 07, 2019

Deep Stillness

Resolve to live life with a deep quiet inside.
Nothing need be in the mind except an open
field of stillness and quiet. That is the ground,
the mother of all else. Of course, the world as
we know it is full of distraction and desires
pulling us here and there. That cannot be stopped.
But inside yourself is the (hidden) moment before the
universe was created. It contains all possibilities;
including return to divine union with the Creation.
Go back now into deep stillness - for a few minutes.
The world will again appear fresh.